tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5659762446720740923.post3196953017291577227..comments2022-04-03T18:39:44.500+01:00Comments on Author Cristina G. : Aphantasia - Being blind in your mindCristina Gherghelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09734612303574078932noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5659762446720740923.post-5264934486601635802018-11-14T14:02:31.657+00:002018-11-14T14:02:31.657+00:00Hi Ryan,
I thank you so, so much for your testim...Hi Ryan, <br /><br />I thank you so, so much for your testimony. It means the world to me. <br />Sorry for the late reply, I receive a lot of spam. <br /><br />It looks that we have a lot much in common. I am really sorry because I know how you feel. <br />I am happy, though, that you are not upset and angry about this. This makes it harder and angriness is so destructive. <br />We lack this magical power and only the universe knows why. <br />Maybe we have developed other “supernatural powers” we are not paying attention to. I don’t know. <br />Have you ever wondered if aphantasia is a skill? <br />Sometimes, I think it’s a curse, a punishment. But I was born with it, from what we know, everybody is born clean. <br />Unless, of course, we believe in second, third, forth and so on life. In this case, I think the punishment makes sense. Who knows what we’ve done in a past life because we had the power of visualisation? <br />I am mad, I know. You should read the story I write now. It’s the worst story ever written. But I will publish it. I know many will relate to it, although no one will read it. <br /><br />It’s so amazing that you can write stories if you don’t force yourself. Yes. I know the feeling. <br />I have so many stories in my mind (ideas) but when I want to write one, another one I never thought of takes the lead. So I let this story write itself. I type and type and when I can’t, I know it is finished. It happened last week. For 15 days a story wrote itself in front me. I was so amazed. I didn’t mind I was a puppet. It sounded like a great story. <br />Of course, it’s not always that easy because the story has to make some sense. But I am of the idea that every story/book, painting, etc., has a market. Pity we are not business people. <br />Artists with determination try everything, and sometimes it’s frustrating. <br />I wish you all the best, Ryan, and if one day you realize that you can see your future, let me know what you’ve done to achieve that. <br />I would give anything to be able to see what I want to see.<br />Cristina G.https://scriitorcristinag.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5659762446720740923.post-11634358300106587382018-11-12T23:42:17.980+00:002018-11-12T23:42:17.980+00:00Hi there, Cristina. I'm an artist, with aphant...Hi there, Cristina. I'm an artist, with aphantasia too. Your post makes absolute sense to me. <br /><br />I have relived without remembering as well. I can remember how I felt at the time, too.<br /><br />I've dabbled with writing short fiction before. I can't imagine how things will really turn out in my writing, but I can do rough plotting beforehand if desired. Either way, it feels often like I am writing(typing) to find out what I will write, or I write(type) to find out what I think. <br /><br />I remember hearing writers say something like, "the first sentence of a story decides what the story will be like." For me, it feels like I am tossing dice blindly, starting from that first sentence. It's like I am embarking on a journey with limitless possibilities. I have to make choices all the time, especially in the beginning, that I feel unsure about making. I understand that the story could be taken into multiple directions, but I don't know which one is best, which one will actually be interesting to read. From that first sentence can be birthed thousands of different stories, with different flavors and messages. I try to pick directions that are internally consistent to what I've chosen so far. But because of that, I find it is quite easy that I will write myself into a boring, or bad story (all well). However, when I'm not busy making decisions, that is when the writing flows mysteriously, just as you said. It's a lovely feeling.<br /><br />When I draw, the essence of the act is almost the same. I don't know what I will draw, or what I want to draw. When I try to think too much about it, I end up paralyzing myself! I start out with drawing something I've drawn many times before (muscle memory), and then I start adding on to it, throwing at it seemingly random elements and features that do not go against what I put down before. It's like I have stored within me visual vocabulary. I have to draw new things in order to increase it. I have internal principles of design within me that help me make decisions about what I've put down on my drawing. After my first drawing is down, it's then that I can really react to it and start having a better idea exactly what it is that I want to draw in that moment. Precisely, it is the case again that I draw to figure out what it is I will draw.<br /><br />Thank you for your post, Cristina. I find that when I am reacting to others, I am able to gain insight into exactly what I think about things, or how exactly I do things. Seeing one others' experience, and seeing how I resonate with it, I think is another aspect of aphantasia. I would not be able to be an artist if everybody else stopped making art. It's through their art that I love, that I am able to realize what it is I want to create. I think it's probably the case too, that when I write, I am pulling on what I've read before to get me through it.<br /><br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01901923462358092226noreply@blogger.com